this website now mostly runs off my new static site generator,
aum. i've decided i want to understand
more of the tools i use, by writing them myself, and this is the first step.
it's not entirely ready yet — it's missing a sitemap, and RSS support — but
it's ready enough to run this website off of.
i have sent in my resignation letter, and i am going to quit my job next
month. i am going to study applied mathemathics in the netherlands! i've
been very excited about this and i'm excited that it's finally real and
guaranteed enough to announce here.
haven't had the chance to listen to any music this time.
2025-04-13
i went to the netherlands, to hang out with a friend. my time there
was wonderful and i enjoyed it very much. the trains are nice (although
expensive), the view is beautiful (although flat), and the language has
proven to be pretty easy to get used to.
listened to the eponymous La Máquina de Hacer Pájaros album,
after listening to the band's Peliculas a few weeks ago. i
think i like prog rock!
these past few weeks have been spent away from work, and i feel refreshed,
though i wouldn't say i'm exactly ready to go back. nevertheless, time marches
on, and tomorrow i go back to work.
i have some big life-changing stuff in the works! updates will be issued when
i have anything final to say — i'm not making the canada mistake again :P
2025-03-30
these past two weeks have been hard. canada's been officially given up on by
work, and we're scrambling to find something else to do to get out of here.
i made a little narrative game that captures my thoughts and feelings
right now pretty well. give it a go if you're okay with themes of suicidal
ideation.
no other things to report.
2025-03-15
San Francisco was fantastic. we met with so many friends and had such a good
time. we finally felt alive for the first time in months... and we also felt
how it is to die again when we got back to occupied palestine.
this month is tilde30.3! a communal thing on tilde town where everyone picks
a project to do. my project is to continue my train photography endeavour.
i've started uploading rips of
VCR parties over to
the Internet Archive. it makes me feel like i'm doing
something important, it's fun to do, and it's also fun to look back at all
those streams. immense thanks to
vilmibm for giving
me access to their personal server for this.
in SF i went up a lot in weight, from 49.5kg to about 54.5kg. i'm happier
than i've ever been with my body :>
i've decided to passively give up on canada and see if i can move somewhere
else. of course, if the opportunity arises, i'll move there, but europe
seems faster, and the most important thing for me right now is to move out.
i can't stand the idea of having to go and see old friends.
finished reading Ra by qntm. fantastic book. i'm
in love with qntm's style of writing, the unreliable narrator, and the fact
that the characters are always as informed as i am. wonderful read from
start to finish — i'm definitely getting a tattoo about it.
rail project: went to Bnei Brak, Hod HaSharon, Kfar Saba, Petach Tikva,
Ra'anana, Rosh HaAyin, TLV Uni, and Herzliya stations. proud of myself.
i'm happy you replied.
2025-02-27
this month is my month. it's been so good so far.
ashe has a new partner! a dollfriend :]
rail project: went to Ben Gurion Airport
we're in San Francisco again! this time i have an itinerary, so i'm not
going to be dissociated for three months like last time. it's also a lot
shorter of a trip, and we have friends to meet up with.
i went thrifting!! i have so many cool shirts now :>
i did weed :D weed's so awesome :] weed is great i love my friends and i
have never felt so much like aoife in my life!!!
listened to Ghostholding by venturing. it's a good album! it's
definitely what i would have thought a Jane Remover rock project would sound
like. favourite songs: Recoil, Dead forever.
we also have a new headmate!
2025-02-09
listened to for the rest of your life by twikipedia. it's...
i have trouble putting into words how this album makes me feel. it's a
fantastic album and i need more time to figure out what it means to me.
favourite tracks: seams, figure me out.
canada has been delayed again, this time for a couple of months. i am
looking into different avenues with which to escape this hellhole.
i'm going to go to san francisco again, soon. this time i won't be so
dissociated.
it's getting lonely here. i'm scared of going outside and seeing familiar
faces
2025-01-24
listened to Move by Hadag Nahash. fantastic album, didn't
expect it to be nearly as good as it was. fun, funky, and important.
favourites: The Strawberry Machine, Bella Belisima, Gabbie & Debbie.
listened to Census Designated by Jane Remover. this is a great
album, and i'm sad the shape of my trauma doesn't match it, otherwise this
would be a 10/10. favourite tracks are Holding a Leech, Idling Somewhere,
Fling.
the stuff going on in the usa has me stressed and unproductive. i feel
guilty for not going through the same stuff and not helping, but also stupid
for caring so much about something that doesn't affect my life.
i'm scared of not moving to canada. i'm going to have to have some
uncomfortable discussions, and growth doesn't happen in three months.
2025-01-14
listened to a lot of music! i'm happy.
listened to CHROMAKOPIA by Tyler, The Creator, late last year.
fantastic album, made me feel connected to this person whose music i'm
listening to for the first time in a way that not many albums do. favourites
are Judge Judy and Hey Jane.
listened to Small Talk by Yehonatan Geffen and band late last
year, as well. some of the songs are very good, but i don't think Geffen
knows how to pad his albums out with anything but 4 minutes of dry talking
about how he's going to fondle some woman's boobs. favourite songs: Bedouin
Love Song, It'll Be Okay - Peace Song No. 349a.
listened to SCRAPYARD by Quadeca. wow, what a
fantastic album. i'm writing this a couple of days after the first listen,
because it took me a long while to fully let it simmer. i'm very excited to
go give it a second, maybe a third listen soon, because the production is
very good and i feel like i missed a whole lot of tiny details. favourites:
GUIDE DOG, WAY TOO MANY FRIENDS.
joined tilde.townand set up
a little homepage.
if you're there, say hi! i've idled on IRC for about two weeks and already
feel right at home. i managed to sneak a thing into last year's zine, which has been syndicated
on this website, as well.
rail project: went to Tel Aviv — Savidor Central station, Karmiel station,
Haifa — Bat Galim station.
canada news!
2024 was a good year, but 2025 is going to be even better.